While making myself a delicious cup of coffee, I thought to myself...
What if a really hot celebrity or the man of my dreams asks me out in the next 5 months? Would I say yes?
My Body: Hell yes!
My Mind: Not a chance.
My Spirit: You'll know when the opportunity presents itself.
That's not confusing at all...
I find that this happens a lot. When my mind, body and Spirit are not aligned on decisions.
My intuition is pretty much always 100% on point. Do I listen to it and obey it 100%? Not a chance.
Typically the intuitive response does not include instant gratification or ego stroking (or any type of stroking). It is the more mature, thoughtful response to people, places and things, which can feel SUPER boring.
Example:
I went on a date with a successful, handsome-ish business guy. He did everything right. He picked me up on time. He made reservations at two restaurants and let me pick which one I liked more. He opened car doors and real doors. We were laughing and having great conversation.
This looked and felt like a winner!
As the waiter was coming over, I was reading my menu (a little above a whisper mid-conversation). You know - like when you kind of talk to yourself about the dishes (Oh, yum. Cod with butternut squash puree? Delicious.).
The waiter caught me talking to myself and said, "Oh man! Are you praying?"
The guy I was on a date with started laughing and said, "No way! That would be so awkward! She's definitely not praying."
Now, in this particular situation, I was not praying, so I started laughing too and cracked a joke.
But little did they know that I pray before every meal. Not religious style, but more of a spiritual gratitude for the meal and thanking The Universe for blessing the meal and every molecule of my body with love so I can better be love for others.
My intuition was yelling at me: Run! This guy is not good for you! You could never 100% be yourself with him!
I dated him for 2 more months and had my heart broken for the first time.
Yup. My bad. I knew and I kept going anyway.
Another example with a different ending:
I was going on a first date a while ago, and my intuition told me in the car on the way there, 'You'll know everything you need to know about this guy on the first date.'
Cool. Thanks intuition!
What did I find out about him?
Well, he shared that all of his moms (including his real mom and two step moms are all addicts and energy and money vampires to his loving, gentle, super hero awesome dad). His dad is an angel and the mothers are all crazy energy and money sucking assholes. Perfect.
Even though this guy is super handsome, super successful, super smart, has fantastic manners (paid for my valet parking and tip) and is buying his first house in Beverly Hills before 30, he would be a DISASTER for me to date.
He hasn't forgiven his moms. He doesn't respect his moms. Which, in turn, means he wouldn't respect me.
I had to learn that the hard way from another ex-boyfriend. He hated his mom and took it out on me. Not pretty.
Back to the point.
My intuition was RIGHT!
Now, if I ignored my intuition, I would have been SMITTEN with this guy, but I knew it was a 'one and done' kind of date. We're still friends.
I'm becoming more and more trusting of my intuition and growing the willingness to obey it.
Intuition is like the angel on one shoulder while the ego is like the devil on the other shoulder.
May intuition be my guide.
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