Drama Dudes

It's incredible.  

Now that I've made a conscious choice to let go of drama guys, I'm more able to see how the drama has played out in my life.

It's also gotten a lot more boring.

Without the 'Is he gonna call me?", "Is he gonna text me?", "Why hasn't he texted me back?", "Are we going out tonight?", "Does he really like me or is he trying to play me?" type of energy, I find myself kinda, well, bored.

But it's a healthy bored.  It's a conscious choice for peace of mind.  

Just like when I gave up alcohol, I made a conscious choice for peace.

I let go of the drama that alcohol brought into my life.  I decided that I wanted to focus my energy on being a more grounded, thoughtful, other-centered human.

It also led to things being a bit more, well, boring...at first.  Then, after a bit of time, you realize how much more full your life is when you can invest your emotional energy in fulfilling, incredible people and life events.  You can be present...all the time.

Not worried about the 'next day demons' from drinking the night before.  The "Did I say something stupid?", "Where's my purse?", "Why is there a guy named 'Steve Underground Bar' in my phone?" crazy thoughts that take up your entire week trying to unfold till you drink again on Friday night.

Ugh.  That sh*t is exhausting.  Just like these men.

For now, it will feel a little less 'exciting' (like sticking your finger in an electric socket), but I know that with time, the choice of peace will bring a loving, kind, gentle, thoughtful, stable, trustworthy man (or men) that will be more fun than I could ever imagine.

Trust.  And be patient.